I'm just infinitely inferior to everyone on this planet. I turned out to be a complete and utter loser. All I have and do still is eat, sleep, study, play videogames, watch tv, etc. I'm 19, second year in college and all I do is commute there to go to class and study, no friends, no social life, nothing. My life is so empty, didn't have friends in high school as well, never went to prom, etc. I don't have any good memories, nothing to remember, my life is just empty, I already feel dead. And all the other 19 years olds around me are so happy, energetic, full of life and I don't blame them, I'm just inferior to all of them. I feel that I have to commit suicide because I was perhaps raised wrong and so its too late to change anything. I'll just live the rest of my life without any company, no friends, no life partner, nothing. What hurts is that I'm on the wrong path, the path to loserdom and that I probably have what it takes to get on the right path. Everyone tells me to just go out and meet people, socialize, improve myself, its so hard. Why do I have to be the one to completely make an overhaul of my pathetic life whereas everyone else has been on the good path their whole life? And everyone that knows me has no idea how depressed, lonely and pathetic I am, my suicide would be a huge shock to all of them. I'm the biggest loser alive, why did it have to be me of all people? Sigh...............................:sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: And I don't know if I can commit suicide with the harm it would cause my family and also my fear of what happens after you die. I feel so stuck. Why did I have to turn out so screwed up? I don't belong in this world, I shouldn't be living, I don't have what it takes to life, to have a normal life. I am so inferior and messed up, surrounded by everyone whos better than me in everything, I'm just a useless pathetic slug. I wish I could start life from scratch all over again......I don't know what to do.