I'm going crazy. I'm trying so hard just to make it to the next day. I have no one to talk to. I don't want to chase people away. No one really wants to listen and help. They think that if my mind is set there is nothing they can do about it. So what, just let me die? Am I that unimportant to the world? I just need someone to love me. I just need someone to be there for me. I just need some sincere support. I cry every night. I sometimes have such intense panic attacks that I fall to the ground. I hyperventilate so much, that I nearly pass out. My body hurts so much, but not a pain I can explain. It literally feels like my heart hurts, along with the rest of my insides. I feel so weak. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to die. I just wish I was never born. I don't want to live my life like this anymore. I just don't see a way out. I can't even make sense of it all right now. Every time I fall in love, my heart gets ripped out, and stepped on. I'm surprised it's still beating. I'm always alone. I suppose in the end, it's really my fault that I'm in this situation. I'm just so scared. I can't stand living in constant pain anymore.