I can't control anything else.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Beka, May 19, 2014.

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  1. Beka

    Beka Well-Known Member

    I need change. I desperately need change.

    There are so many things I want to change but they always seem to backfire on me.

    For example, I want to be thinner, I need to be thinner, smaller. But I always end up bingeing. Everytime I eat I can feel myself putting on the pounds.
    There is only one thing I can control in my life and that is my death.
    I can't control my self harm because I do it when the time isn't right and it's always way too spontaneous. I do it simply because I can.

    Death. My death, is the one thing I have control over. I hate this world, I don't want to be a part of it why should I be forced to be a part of something I don't want to be a part of it doesn't make any sense.
     
  2. scaryforest

    scaryforest Banned Member

    changing things can be overwhelming, agreed.
    self discipline, i think needs to be improved and then things you need and want will start falling into place?
    positive thoughts your way
     
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