I am so close to the edge on this one. I do not know how to get over not being with the only person I love in the world. Every moment of my day presents me with the only two options, that is get him back or end my life for good. How can I cope with this agony for much longer, what are people supposed to do when they feel like this? My insides feel like they are slowly exploding, I can not get a hold on my breathing for more tha a few moments every day before it all comes flooding back and I remember that it is absolutely futile. I hate that I have allowed myself to become so dependant on somebody else, somebody who I can't stop pleading to be with me but to no avail, and the embarassment on its own above everything else is enough reason to end it. It is one panic attack after another. I spend all night on the computer, then I go to bed at about six in the morning and stay there till about seven in the evening and that is my life because I can't cope with not being able to see this person. I genuinely see myself as having no choice other than suicide if I can not see him again because my body can't stand this exhaustion much longer. I have alienated all my friends, my family think I am a freak for who I am and for spending so long and investing so much effort in this very unreliable person that I love. What do I do?