On July 16th, 2011 I was pushed down and attacked by a bully for no apparent reason that knew me in high school. We(Mom and I) pressed charges but haven't heard from the cop since. Then, on August 1st, 2011, the area around where the injury had occured became red and inflamed. Mom took me to the hospital and they wanted to hook me up to an I.V., but because of my SEVERE phobia of needles, I wouldn't let them. I was then given oral antibiotics to take but they never worked at all, and kept being prescribed various kinds of oral antibiotics to take but they haven't been working. Then, on Wednesday August 31st, 2011, they decided they wanted to do an I.V. but I freaked out an they gave me an Ativan pill but the pill didn't work at all. My mom knows about my severe phobia of needles and about she even got our family doctor to type up this note explaining about my phobia to any doctor that tries to give me a needle. They ended up doing an ultrasound on my arm and decided that since the fluid in my arm was going down(that's the reason we went to the hospital in the first place, the fluid was so built up in my left arm it made it very big and even made my hand swollen). On the way home from the hospital, mom kept calling me a wimp and saying that she hopes I rot in hell since that's where I belong apparently. She claims she understands about my phobia and I have tried relaxation techniques but they don't work, no matter how often I try them. Anyway she is still teling me I'm nothing but a burden to her life and she wishes she never had me(she planned to have me) but she has not apologized for what she said at all. She NEVER apologizes. She thinks she's the exception to the rules when it comes to apologizing and such. She even stayed with a guy who drew a picture of me with my head sliced off and he put my name under the picture so I knew it was me yet she stayed with him(This was back in 2005, they broke up later in 2005 for a different reason). I have no where to go, no friends I can turn to, no relatives, since they are all far away from me, nothing. I am making an attempt tonight and hopefully it will work (which I doubt). I'm sick of all of this shit and she refuses to listen to my side of things, I tried suggesting we get a relationship counsellor but she won't agree, apparently it's all my fault even though I'm not the one who instigates it and I DO try to explain why I feel what I feel, but she just tells me to shut the fuck up.