I've attempted suicide hundreds of times since I was 10 years old. The first time i tried I <Mod Edit:CocaCola:Methods> and I just popped it back into place. <Mod Edit:Coca Cola:Methods>, but I'm still fine. I've been smoking since I was 11 but the doctors tell me i have the healthiest lungs they've ever seen. I took <Mod Edit:CocaCola:Methods> and woke up like it was just another day. I shot <Mod Edit:Cocacola:Methods>and still didn't die. What am I doing wrong? I'm 24 now and I'm transgender and I don't have the resources to transition, so I keep trying to kill myself. I hate every aspect of the vessel I was placed in for the human experience and I just want it to be done with, but I can't I just keep waking up.