Christmas is coming up and I can't do another Christmas again. I suffer from severe anxiety and last year was awful. I had the pressure of getting all my university work done along with a big increase in hours at work. I don't know how I survived, but I have never felt so awful and I wanted to die. I dropped out of uni earlier this year, but my anxiety has got a lot worse compared to last year and I will be doing even more hours this year. I will be working most days from the end of November till the start of January. It's not that I can't physically do it, I can't mentally do it but I need the money. Just thinking about how bad it is going to be makes me cry. Even if I do survive the Christmas period, things won't get better. I will always feel anxious and just sit at home and play games because my life is leading no where. Everyone around my seems to be progressing if life whereas I am not. I have went to the doctors 3 times about my anxiety but they have just gave me information and it felt like I wasn't taken seriously. I just can't do it any more.