I haven't cut for a while, maybe a month or two, but I've been feeling the urge to. I want to cut so bad sometimes I choke on it. I make plans, head home early, stay up late, but I can't. I don't know why I can't. I can't touch the blades, I can't put them to my skin. I can't do it and it's driving me crazy. I'd say I need to but I know a dozen people will correct me, I want to cut and I want it desperately. I'm not trying to stop, I have no intention to so why in the world can't I do it? The thought of it makes me sick, my insides wriggle and I get so very uncomfortable. Has anyone else had this problem?