I don't think I can do it anymore. I'm always sad and miserable. I hardly have any friends. I can't even socialize with people. Last night I went out with a friend and I couldn't even speak to others there at the restaurant. Felt ignored the entire time, believe the reason why I feel others hate me so much is cause I hate myself more than anything. I'm always afraid I'm going to be rejected or made fun of because I've been bullied and abused so much. I just can't do it anymore. I don't know why I keep on trying. I'm crying as I type this, I just see that things won't get any better for me. I just think it be best if I'd be gone.