I don't know why i'm posting this. I never do on this site. I have fallen into depression once again. Actually, it never really goes away. So I guess it has just become a lot worse. I want to kill myself, but I know that I will fail. I do not have anything that will kill me instantly. I cannot go on like this. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't speak properly, I can't think properly - I can't function. All I can do is listen to music and stare into nothingness. I'm not talking to anyone about my problems. I already have and they don't help, they just tell me everything I already know. I am too much of a burden, I will not find another person to tell my problems to because I know that I will just lose them. I deserve to die. I don't care what happens to me. I don't care if people hate me because of how I am. I don't care that I can't function properly. I don't care that I have no one to go to. I only care that I die when I attempt. I am not going to a hospital for help, I don't have the money and I'm not covered. I'm not going to a mental ward, because of the same reason. I just. Want. It. To. End.