I've tried really hard over the past few days to want to live. I've tried talking to people on here and in real life and people just don't seem to see me anymore and seeing as i seem to be unhelpable why don't i just get it over with? i have actually tried really hard this time to get the help. i have everything set up for me to do it now and the one thing that was keeping me alive isn't around anymore so there is nothing holding me back anymore. i'm trying to hold on to see if gets better but there is nothing that i can hold onto anymore. i want to die but i don't, i'm confused but i think my mind may be made up this time.