Vomiting all day every day. I can stop. I try and try and try. I can't do it. I am not a pessimist, I tried for 8 years to stop. I can't sleep, I can't work, I can't respond to my boyfriend (my only friend in the world). I just make everybody miserable. I've wasted over £1000 in the last few months on food. My teeth are ROTTEN. Grey halfway up, yellow the rest of the way. I will never in a million years be able to afford to fix them (really, I am a nurse). I will never be beautiful even if my eating disorder stops. I will never be worth anything. The damage I have done to my appearance is irreversable. The saddest part is... I looked alright to begin with. Ironic. If anybody knows the point in living through tonight, do tell me.