I cry my self to sleep every night due to my past, all my mistakes everything I've done wrong. I've lost so many close people in my life bestfriends and I just can't take it any more. I lock myself in my room everyday so I don't have to make eye contact with my family. I always feel horrible all I do is cry. I've been bullied since grade 5 because of my weight and I always get called fat and ugly and these really horrible names and I just want it all to stop, I some times think about ending it all. ending everything ending my life because of how unhappy I always am. I always feel like no one cares and I'm worthless like I'm nothing. It's even worse that my parents don't even notice how unhappy I am. they don't notice that I'm always in my room. and my brother is on drugs, alot of drugs and it just makes me so sad to see him doing that... I love him with all my life but he doesn't even know. He would rather do drugs or drink than spend a day with me his little sister. I hate living with this family. I'm done with everything.