Where do I begin. My mom has MS. My dad is a deadbeat. My sister used to abuse me. My moms boyfriend verbally abuses me and my dads gf has anger problems. My bf of 9 moths dumped me 4 years ago and I still love him. What's wrong with me. I have attempted susiside before and cut daily. My grades are horrible and I barley sleep. I can't take it anymore. I see a councler and ita not helping at all. I am slipping from reality no one knows what I go through. I am only 15 and yet I feel like I can't handle another day. I feel sick all the time and my family hates me. They told me so. I cry myself to sleep and then cut. <I've edit mod total eclipse triggering> I am so tired of living. I don't see a point anymore. I hate that I have to live this daily. I am called a slut cuz I won't have sex. I am used and left to die. I can't do it anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like I am falling and I've hit rock bottem. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I can't fake anymore. I'm not okay an I just wish everyone who has called me names <edit mod total ecllipse harming others>. I want to see them suffer. I don't think I can do this anymore. I need help.