I know its been a while since I'vce been heer. Pretty much changed in my life. People know. People know that I'm suicidal. They forced me to get some help, but it takes too long and I'm tired of waiting. I pretend that everything is fine, but it's not. I'm screaming inside but nobody hears it. I lost my best friend, I can't tell him anymore when I feel like giving up. I have to do it all by myself and it's too much. I dont know what else do. I just feel like giving up. It's the only thing I think about. It's the only thing that will give me peace. if they just let me..