Tried killing myself 5 times in the last 4 weeks, the last attempt I decided I needed help and went to see my doctor. She wouldn't give me any drugs because im suicidal and she wanted to refer to me a psych ward, I told her I was heartbroken and not mental. She said she would refer me and get somone to phone me. Nobody ever did. I'm crying as I write this now, I just don't see any life for me anymore and want a way to end my suffering and pain. I feel so trapped because I can't seem to end my life. I want to get in my car and just drive it in to a wall, but the only thing thats scaring me about that, is surviving. I don't know what to do anymore.