I can't anymore. I'm about to snap. I'm totally trapped, on all sides. Oppressed and abused by sick parents, sick as I am. I'm constantly being poisoned, fucked up by them, reflecting thier jet black auras onto me and using me for thier darkness. I fucking hate them. I HATE THEM! They fucking dominate me, they CAN use me and they DO, for them! IT WAS ALWAYS THEM! I can't do this anymore. I'm raped, I'm ruined. I've lost the ability to love another person. I've lost the will to live, I've lost the drive to move forward in life. I have to force myself to live another day, just one more hour, just one more second, just one more minute, just one more breath. I spent years, YEARS, waiting for me to find some happiness, ANYTHING, and thought I'd find it once I left to fucking high school, and I ended up a pyscho rape victum, worse than I ever thought I would be. I've fucking lost it, I"M A FUCKING MESS. I can't move forward. I spent my entire high school career the way I spent my middle school career, which was just like my elementary school career: "Things will get better, finally, once I get to the next step in a few more years." LIES. I will spend my entire life saying "things will get better" until I'm on my deathbed, too weak to fucking end it and drowned and swallowed alive by REGRET. I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE!!!! I WANT TO DIE!!!! I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!