I can't do this :(

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Nathan :), Jan 3, 2013.

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  1. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    I'm really struggling don't tell me to go docs, or to counselling its no use, I tried getting the help and my key worker turned his back and told me how to kill myself.

    I don't have anyone to turn to as I lost my friends when I attempted in october.

    I can't see me been around for all 2013 but that's when I'll start worrying members again

    There's no point getting help
     
  2. jnick

    jnick Well-Known Member

    I dont know your particulars, but if I can maybe help or listen im around.
     
  3. midnightstar

    midnightstar Senior Member

    Please don't give up natalie, I'm willing to listen if you want to talk :hug:
     
  4. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    I can't deal with the flashbacks, nightmares, pain, the constant thoughts and planning of suicide. The fact I lost my friends because of my failed attempt. I go to uni and everyone including staff hates me, there's only one staff that don't hate me. People on here are probably fed up of me and would rather me just end it.

    I'm sorry but this is my year to leave.
     
  5. Moat

    Moat Banned Member

    Nothing will ever change in your life as long as you have that kind of negative thought of yourself. It only leads to even greater despair; why are you dwelling on things that happened in the past, when you have the Preset (right now) and the Future.
    As long as you continue to think badly of yourself nothing will change at all in your life. Try and search your emory, right down to to your childhood days and grasp onto that memory of when you were completely and utterly content with your life, ad remember that to use in your current every day life. You would be would surprised at how much you can accomplish when you keep in mind you most happinest moment in your life to guide your future.
     
  6. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    If I remember in chat, you were talking about not telling the worker everything. perhaps if you contatced them and told them everything, then things might be different. They can only work with what you give them and if you dont give them everything then how can they help you? That is what they are there for.

    Until you tell them everything how are they meant to help you?
     
  7. introuble

    introuble Member

    I am in the same place. I made it to another day somehow? Please talk to me and I will help. I know you think I cant but I can!! Im right here for you and with you!!!
     
  8. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    I phoned the workers back up on 28th december, was more honest with them and still was told im not at risk enough. despite telling them the truth.

    So again, they are rubbish. I have also used other services over a number of years so nobody can state i am not trying hard enough.
    I've worked with counsellors/therapists/ specialist counsellors/ IAPT lady/ doctors/ and also used samartains. I've recently spoke to samartains face to face but that didn't help much either. So it's not like i am not trying to get "better".
     
  9. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Is it possible you could talk to that one member of staff that doesn't 'hate' you? :hug:
     
  10. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    And tell her im useless at the course, everyone hates me, etc no i can't as much as i would try i know it wouldn't work.

    I'll stick to samartains i know they won't judge,kick me off course, etc
     
  11. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    The sams are great, they really are. Keep talking to them until you get out of this crisis :hug:
     
  12. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    I want to end it but can't yet
     
  13. spidy

    spidy Well-Known Member

    Hi Natalie
    Been down alot myself lately but ending it wont solve much.I do know what it is like to fall apart as i m still struggling and im only saying this so you know i truly understand.I tend to get real bad headaches from overthinking sometimes.Do you have what they call support/mentor workers where your from.they ussually have been through some form of mental illness themselves in thier lives.I ask this as i find them very easy to talk too and they do not judge as they understand as they are not relying on what a text book says.
    Please try too stay strong and i do know this is hard at times and keep posting or going to chat here to let things out as bottling emotions and fears up wont help
    Take care Gav
     
  14. Nathan :)

    Nathan :) Banned Member

    To stop members worrying about me I will phone crisis team on monday morning, if it will make you all stop worrying.

    If I'm not around after that it be coz they have sectioned me.
     
  15. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    Why wait till monday? why put it off. if you wanted to help yourself you would call them now
     
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