I am panicking bad about the family dinner later today. I've spent the night at my mums house in my old room, and I've spent the night crying, trying not to SH or what's worse... I am becoming terrified of this event. There's so many factors making this a bad thing... my family is just a mess I guess. And they are going to expect me to be perfect... I guess I've described it in the other thread... And there's a chance the drunkard will be there... so I will have to constantly navigate around him for fear of him saying inappropriate things or even grab me... because he forgets we're related and that this isn't some dead-end pub where he can just grab women... I can't do this. I will probably have a bad anxiety attack there. I already am apart to throw up!