. . . or any time after that. There really is no place left for me in this life. I've tried so hard to be positive. I really have. Yesterday I forced myself to be happy but I was just kidding myself and those around me. Not that there was anybody around me. I haven't spoken to another person face to face for two days now. I can't go on like this. I am a 'people' person and need someone to talk to every day. But one by one everybody just fades away when you are down on your luck. Until there is no one left. Nobody replies to any texts or emails. no one picks up the phone. I'm totally lost now and I really don't think anyone would notice if I was gone. I'm already lifeless. Why should I drag this miserable existence out any longer. It's pointless.