I haven't cut for maybe 3 months now- not even thought about it. And now out of nowhere I think I have to. I can't feel anything. Its like part of my brain isn't working. I don't even feel alive anymore. I sleep ALL THE TIME. And when I'm not asleep I stare at the wall or the TV without really knowing what I'm watching. A day can feel like a year and yet it just passes me by. When people talk to me I feel so detatched and despondent. If I cut, I could make myself feel pain. I want to see my own blood and I want to hurt. I just want to get my feelings back.