What do you do if you cant forgive yourself? I keep getting drunk and doing things that arent me. Im a disgrace to the human race. I only seem to care about me. Ive gone numb to this world and my daughter is better off without me. I really have nowhere to turn. I hate myself, more and more each day. i cant get a grip. No excuses its time to leave I guess. Cant take pills all my life, cant carry on being a humiliation, what gets into my head? I truely deserve to die.