possible trigger. I haven't really done anything in a couple months, but I cannot get it off my mind. I can't seem to shake the part of me *wanting* to asphyxiate myself. Last night at around 10:00? I was finally ready to crash after being up a day or two. I said goodnight to all and went in my room. I put a leash around my neck last night and I got shivers down my spine and I started to laugh. I just knew i'd get caught so I stopped but the feeling of sheer anticipation was amazing! pointless post, sorry.