I'm one year out of college. At this point my older brother had a stable, well paying job, had been dating his now-fiancé for three years, my younger brother is composing music for video games, musicals, and films, he just met the girl of his dreams, and what am I doing? I work at a children's theme park as an entertainer and have been auditioning for anything and everything since I graduated and have yet to book any work doing the only thing I love to do. I know I should be grateful that I get to sing every day at my job. But it's mostly a summer job. And most of my coworkers are in high school. I'm 23. I should have a boyfriend. I should have HAD a boyfriend now for at least a year. I should be going out and having fun with friends. I should be working my way up in the entertainment business. I should be living in New York City. I live at home, I stay at home when I'm not at work, and I can hardly make and keep friends let alone a boyfriend. It feels like there is absolutely nothing for me to look forward to or live for. I have nothing going for me. I have no one who loves me. I have nothing. I am nothing.