Argh! Gods dammit all. It's pretty much one year now since the guy I fell in love with broke my heart and decided I didn't exist anymore. He was everything to me. I don't know if you'd call it love, but I was very attached to him (let's call it a type of love). He supported me through years of depression, being the only person who could actually cheer me up. He was literally the only person I had regular contact with for years. Depression caused me to shut out everyone else. We'd play games together, talk about everything and anything. Hell, he helped me figure out I was bleedin' gay! Then he disappeared. Forever. Just one morning, he started ignoring me completely and fully. Didn't say goodbye, hello, or say why. He just decided not to answer me anymore, whatever the situation. Refused to talk it over. Refused to anything. Even after I'd attempted suicide (failed, obviously) and ended up in a hospital. And it's been one year and I STILL CAN'T GET OVER HIM! I'm plagued by him in my dreams. I wake up sweating and crying because everything's fine between us in the dream and then I realize it's not real and it hurts like flippin' heck! I can't do things now because I'm afraid I'll run into him. I can't join groups, I can't play the online games I did with him because we were in the same guild and I'll run into him and fall back into my ultra-depressed maniacal stalker-mode psychotic nervous mental breakdown wreck! We had pretty much exactly the same interests so no matter where I go I'm terrified I'll run into him! And I can't handle running into him! I'll breakdown totally and a year of recovery will go to heck! Help me, forumites! How on Earth do I get over something like this?