I loved him so much. I spent money I didn't have and did every day little gestures to make his life better. We were together for so long then all of a sudden he got bored with me and found someone new...but didn't tell...for weeks. I took him to a broadway show a few days after we broke up and he hugged me tight and said he still loved me. I was stupid to think he had changed. I'd still take him back. I apologized for getting mad. This year I've lost some people that were very close to me forever...at risk of losing others..my dog died all alone and scared when I wasn't home. I lost my job. I didn't want to lose him. God I can't deal with this...not like this...not in the way I did. I just want things to be ok again. I wish I hadn't yelled at him for texting her...Maybe I just chased him away. He's never coming back. He has me wrapped around his finger and were 'just friends'. I wasn't good enough for him....I know I am young and everyone says that you should expect this...but it just hurts too much to deal with. I can't do this. I feel like I don't matter to anyone. I didn't matter to the person that was I was supposed to mean something to.