Ever since I was young I always felt sad and alone in the world, nothing's changed apart from now I can't leave the house through anxiety/depression and it's been about 8 years now I haven't left the house and I just can't be bothered anymore. Selfishness and selflessness aside, I need some relief from this. I'm on pregabalin and lorazepam and zopiclone for sleeping and it's all just putting off the fact that I don't belong in this world. I know it, I can just tell I'm not made for this world. This is not a declaration of my suicide I just had to say something somewhere where people might listen, nobody in my life listens not even my cpns or psychiatrist. So there it is.