I can't even think straight. I'm really lonely. I don't want to go back to college. I have zero friends, and I'm not going to be able to do any work just like last year. I saw a psychologist for 25 sessions, it didn't do anything. I've tried six different medications and nothing was effective for longer than a couple months. I'm so ugly and don't have any conversational skills. I did months of social skills training and it did nothing. I can't even look in the mirror. I don't have it in me to keep trying. It is not worth the disappointment. If there was anything good or worthwhile about me I'd have at least one friend. But I don't have any.