I can't go on anymore

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Innocentsaint, Dec 16, 2008.

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  1. Innocentsaint

    Innocentsaint New Member

    I feel like I am at the rock bottom of my. A burning dark pit of despair. I hate hate hate hate life. Basicly, I am sixteen years old. I just moved to a new school about a 2 years ago. I don't have any friends at all. I was diagnosed with ADHD and my grades in school suck. My teachers tell me that I am lazy and worthless and kids make fun of me in school. < Mod Edit: Method > I hate life. My parents tell me that I never be able to go to college cause im a failure in school EVEN though I have the second highest IQ in my grade. I don't understand anything anymore. Why does fate frown at me. I can't last much longer. :( :cry::cry::cry::wallbash::wallbash::wallbash: SOmone hlep me.
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  2. Avalanche

    Avalanche Member

    Hey Innocentsaint,

    I am sorry things are so hard right now. When I read your post, I felt like I could relate quite a lot to feeling like this when I was your age (I am now in my 20s). I was told quite frequently that I was worthless as well and a failure and it made me feel horrible all the time. Like you, I also knew from school testing that I had one of the highest IQs in my school, which just made me think that it was true, that I was just lazy and a failure. But it is not true hun. I did not have ADHD, but was going through too many problems to be able to ever focus on school. To cut a long story short, I had to move out of home when I was 15 and continued to try my hardest at school and managed to prove everyone wrong, graduated top of my class and went on to university graduating with honors.

    I know it is hard when everyone is telling you what you can't do, but please try to just focus on yourself and all of the good things that you are able to do. Believe in yourself and you might surprise yourself as well.

    Hang in there hun,
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Innocentsaint,

    welcome to sf, Im glad you found us :hug:

    I'm sorry to hear your feeling so low, I'm here if you need to talk :hug:

  4. Hazel

    Hazel SF & Antiquitie's Friend Staff Alumni

    Hello Innocentsaint, I'm sorry you are having such a bad time, I'm glad you found Sf and am sure you will find the support you need here.

  5. hey innocent --

    when i was 16, then put me in about tenth grade. during that time, i couldn't fit in anywhere no matter how hard i tried and the people around me kept things that way. i couldn't find a decent thread of friendship on any level until two years later. let's just say that i understand your feelings at this point.

    the good news is: feelings change. the way people feel about you will change with time in the same way that you will change as a person. mind you, this is a difficult situation and i recognize that, but i am also happy to let you know that this is, in fact, not the end. not even close.

    as i like to say from time to time, with all of its ups and downs (and sometimes more downs than ups), this is a beautiful world.

    start with the basics. you know who you are. find people that believe in you (whether online or otherwise; just start somewhere) and surround yourself with them and their input. become the brilliant, wonderful person that you are in spite of everyone else around you because, more than likely, you are a million times more than they will ever say you are.

    they'll learn.

    in the meantime, you have wonderful things to do and people to meet and a world to explore and i strongly encourage you to explore that world and live life to the full in every way you can, big or small. maybe you can't do something extreme, but you can watch the sun come up or take a different route home if you walk or just enjoy nature for a while.

    don't give up, no matter what. if you give up, then we can't do as much, but if you hold on, we can move any mountain.

    if i can be of any help at all during the process - if I can even be a listening ear - feel free to ring me, email me, IM me, whatever. I'm usually around and too happy to talk to anyone (unless I'm working, but then that's another issue :laugh:).
  6. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    Sometimes parents can be very cruel, dragging us down when they should be building us up. But don't let them get to you at all. Clearly you are very clever and don't let them convince you elsewhere. If you keep trying, try and prove them wrong, get into college etc, you have a bright future ahead of you. :hug: If you ever need anyone to talk to, Pm me.
  7. tendenCs_89

    tendenCs_89 Well-Known Member

    hey innocentsaint
    im 16 as well and a lot of the things youve described apply to me as well.
    i been at the same school since i was 9 and there was a time when i was popular and happy
    i really dont have much idea why, but my friends turned on me one by one and now i only have a couple left and i dont even really get on very well with them (one of them likes to tell the people who hate me things about me behind my back). Im constantly getting laughed at and teased and excluded and shit and although it hasnt been the cause of my depression it hasnt helped at all and its even caused me to have social anxiety, meaning that i find it difficult to socialise in general.
    it used to kill me inside on a day to day basis, but lately ive been able to deal with it in a number of ways. Firstly, dont care what the people who are mean to you think. To make fun of someone for no reason (or even with reason i guess) is a sign of their own personal insecurity and shows that they need to try and trample on you to make themeselves look big in front of their friends. These people are not even worth considering. Ignore what they do, hold youre head up high and walk confidentally. And dont for a minute worry about how they see you (this may not be such a problem for you, but it was for me so i dunno)
    as for grades ive been quite lucky and have been pushed by my teachers so i cant really relate to you in that sense as other people on SF might be able to
    All i can say from my experience is to work hard at what you want to do and to forget about the stuff you dont. Dont work hard for youre parents or teachers but for YOU. and anyone who tells you that you cant succeed is a low-life idiot (sorry, no offence to youre parents) and any thought like that must be avoided. To be honest, even if you dont do well at school and dont get into college that really isnt that important, theres still plenty of options out there. But if you want to go to college, fight to get there for youre own sake, to improve and mould YOURE life, not youre parents or teachers or class mates
    Hope ive been of help :hug:
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