im so sick of fyling like this!! i have a gd week, where im relly supportive to my friends, everyone thinks im better, that im happy, then i plummet, just like that! now i jus snap at ma mates when they need support, but, tbh, im kinda sick of givin support, i mean, im always helpin other ppl, so many people on msn are ppl who need my help, but i have noone to help me, im alone in this fuckin world, n i dont no how much longer i can go on living like this. ther is really no point to my life, when i look to my future, i seems bleak and dark, all just tests, to get to what, a life where i have to pay bills, pay taxes, work my ass off everyday. iv got huge exams comin up that will decide my future at college in the nxt 2 months, but everytime i go to study for them all i can think about is slitting my wrsits, or killing myself. i dont no how i can pass my exams in this state of mind, and the worst thing is noone knows, everyone thinks im this shiny, perfect, a grade, hardworkin, HAPPY girl, but im not, thers like a war goin on in my head, all i want to do is end this life. i dont want to carry on, theres no point, noone understands, noone offers me theri help, so whats th point, if im here alone then noone is gonna notice if i just disappear rite. i just cant do this anymore, i really cant, i ache from tryin, from tryin to hold on, from tryin to maintain the perfect facade, from tryin to b perfect. i dont want to hurt nemore.but noone understands!!!! grr.