I'm not really sure where to start off so here it is in a nutshell ... I'm 26 years old and I have no reason to live anymore. I've been diagnosed with kidney failure and will need to go on dialysis/ and get a transplant. I have many friends that are allways around yet I feel like I'm alone. My family has been suppourting me emotionally and financially for a very long time as I'm to sick to work. I couldn't ask for a more loving family. The woman i care for just wants to be friends and nothing more, and i don't blame her because I'll never beable to suppourt her, give her a family and everything that she deserves. I'm going to be on disability for the rest of my life just living feeling sick and tired and hooked up to a machine to filter my blood everyother day, not really living just staying alive. There's just no point to my life anymore there's nothing else i want to see or do, I want to just end it now instead of draging my life on with a stupid machine. I feel empty inside and a drain to my family(even tho they don't see it that way) I just wish it could all end. Everyday of my life is the same as the last i get up i watch tv i eat I talk to friends and or hang out with them then I go to bed. some days i feel sicker and more worn out than others, but everyday I lay in bed wishing it would just end. I have no goals, nor do i want any. I don't find enjoyment out of anything anymore either. I feel as if I'm all ready dead, but my body is still walking around with the living. I want / need a reason to live but havn't been able to find one. I don't really know what kind of advice I'm asking for I guess i just need to let someone know how i feel. I can't tell my family how I feel because on how hard they will take it. Thanks for your time.