I'm 28. I've been fighting depression for 15 years now, and I've been at least somewhat stable the past two years- somewhat. I lost my job today. I consistently showed up late because I couldn't manage to wake up for work. I have about a two month window before I'll be in dire straights financially. The job I lost was the best I'd ever had, but I even managed to screw that up. So now I'm sitting here, realizing that I'm 28 and I've done absolutely nothing with my life. I'm a complete waste. If I get another job, I don't even know if I'll be able to hold it. And even then, it would just be a job. When I was younger, I always promised myself that I would do something that I love as a career. Now, I can't even keep an entry level position. I've failed completely. And I don't understand why it has to be so much harder for me than those people who are happy and doing something they love. I don't know what I did wrong to deserve having a mind so messed up that I can't function like a normal human. I want to die. I'm done. I want this to be over. I've got no one to turn to and nothing left to give. I'm so screwed up that every medication, every therapy has been a waste on me. I just want to be done. I'm so tired.