I'm having a really really hard time and am thinking about Overdosing. I just want to die and i can't stop crying, but i have to cry silently because my roommate has been in and out of the room and i dont want to attract attention or talk about it with her, no one i live with knows i have mental health issues. i feel guilty calling my therapist when i talk to her so frequently and its the night and the weekend and because at the day program i am in they keep reinforcing that reaching out to friends or family for help is selfish, bad, and wrong i now can't bring myself to call my parents or a friend because it makes me feel anxious and guilty and like an even worse person. i can't handle this. got in a fight with a girl on another forum who i was trying to help, and no one is willing to stand up for me, everyone just looks the other way. clearly something is wrong with me that i don't deserve support. i can't keep living when i feel like this. I'm about to throw my whole life away over something so stupid. I can't handle this. i deserve to die. i'm a pathetic fuck up who deserves to die.