I can't help it, but to cry, many times over sprin break...Its lame, cuz I'm a guy

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Darker Than Black, Feb 20, 2009.

  1. Darker Than Black

    Darker Than Black Well-Known Member

    feelings, are for fools
    feelings, are for the weak.
    I was weak, and I was a fool.
    What else is there to do?
    Nothing, but to die.



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    I've always blamed myself for what happened,
    and now I'm trapped by my own self hate,
    there is no other way,
    but to hate you.
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    So, from today on, I will hate you.
    Even though I know it is wrong to do so,
    because I know its my fault to begin with.
    I can't help it, I'm what I am.
    So call me a crazy, I'm a mess up boy
    with a lot of issues.
    I've been trying, so hard, for so long.
    But everything always come back,
    and put me in back to square one.
    I can't change it, no matter how hard I've been trying.
    I'm in this all alone.
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    suicide is the only thing on my mind.
    But to speak of the truth,
    I don't want to die.
    It's just so hard.
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    If only life was a differentiable equation...
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    I want to live,
    yet, I'm so scared.
    I don't want to live alone for the rest of my life.
    I'm so scared, to see it really happening.
    That's why I want to die.
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    I know you don't care,
    about people like me.
    I've cause you enough trouble.
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    So from now on,
    everyday,
    I will hate you, L.K
     
  2. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Re: I can't help it, but to cry, many times over sprin break...Its lame, cuz I'm a gu

    Instead of hate don't you think it would better be described as anger? Anger is one of the five stages of grief. If this should be the case then you will be alright.. I started with grief and when I got to anger I stopped there and got over her. I didn't need the last three steps...Do you see a therapist???You should they can go over the stages with you and teach you coping skills to help you get thru this. Think it over!!