I feel so alone all the time. At least I know now I am not alone in the way I feel. No one around me understands what it feels like. I hate myself so much. I cannot just snap out of it. I cannot even tell you how many times a day I talk to myself and say I wanna die. There is not a day that goes by that I do not at least think it. I feel horrible and guilty feeling this way. I know that there are other people that have it way worse than I do, but I cannot help the way I feel.