I can't help it

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by MouseSLP, Oct 1, 2011.

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  1. MouseSLP

    MouseSLP Member

    I want to die
    I want to die
    I want to die
    I'm horrible
    Everyone would hate me if they knew the real me
    No-one knows me
    It's so hard to keep up the charade
    I hate me
    I really hate me
    I want to die

    I need help
    I'm so scared
    No-one knows me
    I am so alone
    But I hate me
     
  2. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Hey, what's up? How is your job going?
     
  3. MouseSLP

    MouseSLP Member

    haven't been to work since end of August... can't focus... Doc not happy with my lack of progress in getting well

    i'm not good
    today is not good
    this week has been hard
    i don't know how to fix me

    i have the perfect life... so why am i like this? why can't i snap out of it?
    they'd all be better without me, without me whining on and dragging them down everything would be perfect

    i'm so horrible, i hate myself for what i've done, i've ruined everthing
    i hate myself, oh god i hate myself so much for what i've done

    my plan is complete
    my 'to do' list is almost complete
    I will have to set a date soon - i can't bargain with myself anymore

    therapist and meds aren't working, i'm so trired, so scared
    i'm sorry
    but i have no one to talk to
    i can't share with anyone in the physical world - i have 24-7 help numbers - but can't ring from home - oh god i hate myself so much
    i want to die
    i can't do this anymore
     
  4. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    What do you think of your doc? Do you think he/she is a good fit for you, and what kind of things is he/she trying for you?
     
  5. MouseSLP

    MouseSLP Member

    i like my doc :)
    can't talk now
    not alone
    got to keep up the charade
     
  6. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Okay.
     
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