I can't hold it in anymore, I'mso down, so stressed, so full of negative, and my arms they just itch and burn and I need to do them. I've held back so long, it's my sweet spot, but i cant do it there, people will see. I can't stop i would just feel so much fucking better if i did it. And as i find i am at the point, you know the point, i find myself losing my mind, not making any sense to myself, and have no where to release or explain (banned from chat again, meh) i hate living in this ruled world, i need free space, even in the wired i cant find free space. I hate this place, I hate sf, I hate, and hate, and hate, and hate, and fuck it, i need to, now. done. gonna.