My will to die has supassed my will to live and I can no longer continue living this miserable pathetic life. I have nothing no friends no social life no future not even my family cares about me. I have definately fought the will to die I have tried going back to school, I have tried college, I have tried the princes trust programme, I have seen a therapist and have even applied to join the army but have just finished the two day selection process the only reason I passed was becasue my fitness and maths test was of a high standard what let me down was my confidence. But the two days gave me an insight into what the army would be like and it is not for me. Now I am back to nothing no hope and no future. It is to late to go back to college even though theres is nothing there I actually want to do. I am now on job seekers allowance and they are going to force me in to a shitty job that I don't want to do. The town I live in is shit I mean someone was beaten to death with a crow bar the other week. I live next to punk ass drug dealers who party and get high every night and keep me awake with the noise. No one cares about me, i have no future and I can't keep fighting the will to die. All day I just think of different ways I could do it. It's not that I want to die but what do I have to live for. I mean why do you people live day in day out it's the same routine and nothing happens, why the hell do you people carry on what pushes you to keep going. Please help me.