I'm bulimic anorexic and I can't stop, it hurts so bad I really hate it, my family resent me because of it. I've been in treatment twice and tried so hard but it hasn't helped, so I'm thinking I either let this kill me or get it over with and kill myself. I have been harming myself all morning to stop myself from doing it and I am getting really anxious now because im not sure how long I can carry on. But then I keep thinking I can't end my life because it means ending the pain, and I deserve the pain. I'm so confused :'( I don't know what to do.