Hello, I'm James and I've posted once before. I just can't handle life lately, everything has seemed to get endlessly worse for the past three years. In late high school I took a long time to graduate, lost all of my friends, my father died who I got along with far better than my mom, I gained weight, and now I'm debating whether I have the skills to go to college to be a computer technician. In the past year I've spent $2000 trying to get a $1800 computer of mine running (fast computers are a hobby for me) and every attempt failed. Even my computer science high school teacher couldn't figure out the issue (it's likely the motherboard, but I can't afford things not working anymore). On top of this problem lately my mom's boyfriend (who we have no choice but to live with due to poor finances) has been being a dick to the both of us. He yells at my mom threatening to move out and make her go into debt, and when I sometimes argue with my mom (which is inevitable since we have opposite personalities) he tells me that I'll never graduate college. What he doesn't know is that I've had grades in the high 80% to mid 90% average since grade five, and my recent issues are caused by depression. I can barely handle having no friends, being fat, and being a social outcast... let alone having to live with two people that make me hate my life even more. I'm not sure what to do anymore, I hate working because the only jobs around here are tourism jobs and nobody seems to want to hire me for sales at an electronics store (even though if they did assess people, I would probably be a top candidate because of hobby computer part and headphone/speaker knowledge). I'm not sure I can take another few days living here, let alone two years of college. I think I should just end it now, if I've learned anything in life it's that some people should have been weeded out by natural selection and I'm one of them.