Somethings gonna blow. i can't decide how/what i'm gonna do, but i can't go on like this, telling people whats wrong just for them to ignore me. i have nothing to live for, and i don't want you to say "oh you have lots to live for" BECAUSE I DON'T OK?! my family are so fucking screwed up. i have ONE friend, who is so un-attatched from reality its unreal! i have nothing to look forward to but work and sleep. i hate myself and everyone around me. i wish i was stupid so i didn't care that i have nothing, but i know my situation too well and all i want to do is put an end. i just want to end it. because i'm sick of running.