I can't take much more of this nightmare.. I can't even leave the house hardly anymore.. My dog is sick, so that even re-enforces that problem.. I was up every 2 or 3 hrs last night with my dog because of her diarrhea.. I have sensory problems my doc has said and I doubt they will ever go away.. I am having attacks that mimic epilepsy because of them.. I do have an appointment the 30th with a psychologist about possible sensory integration therapies.. But I am doubtful it will do much good.. I'm living in my bio parents garage stressed every single day with that.. And having been homeless since March of 2012.. I have gained so much weight from the stress and I am feeling constantly sick every single day.. Everything just hurts.. I cant really take much more.. A friend just walked in on me before I took something to really mess me up / poss lethal.. I am OK for now.. But I am about over the edge.. I had just taken a shower to try and loosen up.. and all I can do is cry.. because my sense of reality is so fucking messed up.. I feel like everything isn't real but at the same time it is.. but reality to me is only to me because I perceive it differently then most other people.. Have only had memories of a friend who committed running thru my head this entire past week.. Been having trouble sleeping.. and eating is sparatic.. Have missed more then 5 therapy sessions in the past month due to various problems, my dog being sick, and being unable to handle going anywhere.. I am waiting on just a friend to get some sort of income so we can at least get our own housing.. But it's taken so long and I'm so close to the edge.. I really can't take much more.. All I can and have been doing is isolating into online video games... And I nearly got my account hacked on that.. And right now it's my only source of any kind of "sanity" ..