It feels like I can't remember anything. Or to be more specific, it feels like the past years haven't been real. Does this mean I'm getting better..? It's like my mind is trying to convince me that everything that happened, the years of sh were fake, that I made it up. I don't want to think like that. I want to know it was real... This is so confusing. I'm actually afraid. Did I make it all up? I can't even answer that right now.