I cant see an end to this

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Fall of Efrafa, Feb 4, 2012.

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  1. I dont think I can stand another week of the same. Its been building for a while and tonight it hit me hard and I nearly did it this time. I dont know what stopped me, too scared of the pain I think. What a coward I am.
    I frantically surfed the web soaking my keyboard with tears, trembling in fear and desperation, looking for advice or somewhere to offload it all and found this place. Im no longer crying or shaking but I feel wasted, empty. All I want to do is sleep for a long time and wake up to find everything is ok but I know that wont happen. Ill get my usual 3 or 4 hours sleep, if Im lucky and Ill wake up and immediately feel desperate and despairing then Ill feel angry that Im still stuck in this situation; Im still lonely, there's no one here to for me to smile at and kiss and begin the day with, instead I begin the day by crying.
    I think ahead to the next few days and weeks and I am filled with dread. Ive spent the last 4 days on my couch and have hardly moved, not even to get to my bedroom and sleep. I only get up to make food or use the bathroom. There's nowhere else for me to go anyway so Im stuck on my couch. I may even die on it and right now I hope I do.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Have you seeked help hun gone to your doctors ask for some therapy some medication to help get you out of this depression. The more isolated you keep yourself the worse it will get. Please reach out for helpl NOW okay don't leave it another day. Get the help you deserve to get you up off the couch hugs
  3. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    agree with TE

    are you able to see a doctor? getting on some meds is probably a good idea if you are not taking anything at the moment

    if you are unable to use this site, you can go to www.befrienders.org to talk to someone on the phone

    a meditation practice can help a lot with sleep, but getting some medical attention seems like it is the top priority now

    if you can get to a better state of health, you will be in a better place to connect with people

    I hope that things can get better soon!

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