Being a sensitive (and overweight) kid, I quickly learned to hold in my feelings, as being emotional isn't an acceptable trait for males in our culture. It would have condemned me to eternal ridicule both at school and at home. Now as an adult, I am not able to even when I want to. I know that crying is a mechanism that can relieve stress and is therapeutic to humans. But I can't even when I try, and am in a private place where no one would ever know. The depression and sadness is only able surface as anger or suicidal thoughts. One thing I do sometimes to calm myself down is, while driving (with the windows up and with no traffic near), to scream as loud as I possibly can and beat my fist on the steering wheel. I still feel sad but at least I wear myself out enough to relax a bit. The medication has helped a lot with controlling anger, and I don't ever do any nutty screaming at the kids anymore. So that's a big plus. But still. Any other guys have this problem?