and I have to be up for work in the morning. Worked all day today on my feet and then kids and a bunch of housework and stuff and I"m so tired, I need to sleep, I have so much I have to do tomorrow - like it or not - and i can't sleep. I'm so tired of not being able to sleep. I'm going to have such a hard time getting up in the morning. I hate that it seems like I'm doing ok and then once I'm alone at night - I'm not o.k. and I can't sleep. I also hate that someone I care about a lot continues to avoid me. Log onto MSN and they log off almost right away, even though I'm not messaging them. It's happened enough I know it's not accidental and that hurts a lot esp combined with never calling me anymore the few times I've phoned it's been just a very short conversation and an excuse to get off the phone. I get the hint - i do - and it hurts.