I can't keep doing this. No matter how hard I try, no matter how much help I try to get, I always end up in the same postion; alone, miserable, and waiting to die. I can't go on like this, something needs to change. I am unable to move on, I cant acomplish anything. My life is just one failure after another, I want it all to stop and just end. If I wasn't such a coward I would have ended my life years ago.