I'm over 20 years old and I never had a girlfriend. In my entire life, i was on 2 dates. I did kissed a few girls, but it was always when i were drunk or something...
I never established deeper connection with any girl. Not as a friend, not as boyfriend, but i do have some female "friends" (i used "" because we don't see each other so often...).
It seems as if the only thing i wanted for the last 10 years is to have a girl. As a child i thought it will happen when it happens, but last 5 years have been hell. I've been depressed and suicidal mostly because of my loneliness.
I can't take it any longer... after doing some reasearches and reading numerous experiences from other guys it seems that those who never had relationship until 20 ussualy have problems with women for entire life... it's not like they suddenly learn hot to get a girl and then have many girlfriends... speaking of that, i want a real, long term relationship, not just "some fun". But i'm afraid i will end marrying a girl i don't love, just because i wont have a chance to meet more girls or out of fear i'll be forever alone.
I've become more outgoing (2-3 times per week) and i am, or at least, look like i am confident. Everyone says i'm pretty nice and i dont think my personality or look has anything to do with me being single... i just found it hard to meet and talk to girls...
It's been the same for 5 years now, every day is exactly the same and i'm slowly drowning in pain and solitude...
And the last thing... experiences... the older i get, the harder i will found excuses for not having experiences and girlfriends... Normal people could hardly understand that someone has never had girlfriend, people will wonder what's wrong with me or if i am even normal...
EDIT: Just to make it clear: the reason i want a girlfriend is not sex or because i feel i should have a girlfriend at my age. It's simply because i want someone to love me and to receive my love. Neglect of my emotions is leaving severe consequencies, like drug abuse (chain smoking, binge drinking at least 2 times per week) etc...
I never established deeper connection with any girl. Not as a friend, not as boyfriend, but i do have some female "friends" (i used "" because we don't see each other so often...).
It seems as if the only thing i wanted for the last 10 years is to have a girl. As a child i thought it will happen when it happens, but last 5 years have been hell. I've been depressed and suicidal mostly because of my loneliness.
I can't take it any longer... after doing some reasearches and reading numerous experiences from other guys it seems that those who never had relationship until 20 ussualy have problems with women for entire life... it's not like they suddenly learn hot to get a girl and then have many girlfriends... speaking of that, i want a real, long term relationship, not just "some fun". But i'm afraid i will end marrying a girl i don't love, just because i wont have a chance to meet more girls or out of fear i'll be forever alone.
I've become more outgoing (2-3 times per week) and i am, or at least, look like i am confident. Everyone says i'm pretty nice and i dont think my personality or look has anything to do with me being single... i just found it hard to meet and talk to girls...
It's been the same for 5 years now, every day is exactly the same and i'm slowly drowning in pain and solitude...
And the last thing... experiences... the older i get, the harder i will found excuses for not having experiences and girlfriends... Normal people could hardly understand that someone has never had girlfriend, people will wonder what's wrong with me or if i am even normal...
EDIT: Just to make it clear: the reason i want a girlfriend is not sex or because i feel i should have a girlfriend at my age. It's simply because i want someone to love me and to receive my love. Neglect of my emotions is leaving severe consequencies, like drug abuse (chain smoking, binge drinking at least 2 times per week) etc...