Whoever read my thread at the welcome section, already knows that my whole situation is about the break up with my fiance. She was my life, I gave myself to her, all of me and now my future is gone, all my plans were about her, all my life was about her. I would have gave up everything if only for her good and she left me. I'm lost, I'm confused, I'm feeling so alone and these feeling, this urge of just stop living, of giving up completely never leaves me. I don't want to be here anymore. I can't, there is no more fight in me, not one bit. I was trying to watch a movie, not even romantic and it still hits me, I can't stop thinking about her, I can't stop missing, I can't stop loving her. But my whole life with her is gone, everything in my life is gone. I feel worthless, I feel like it is all my fault, I feel like I am responsible for everything and I feel I deserve to be punished. Today is the worst day and I just want to give up, to give in and end my pathetic existence. I'm just ranting, I don't even know if this is the place to post this. I feel I'm in a crisis. Ugh, I know this must be pathetic, crying over a girl and wanting to kill myself over a girl.