This is so hard, I try to be strong and fight through every day and ignore the fact that I'm alone.. but I'm thinking I don't see the point in living if it's just gonna be a struggle. It seems more like living out of stubborness. My big problem is I'm really brutally ugly, I don't think it's bdd cuz pretty much everyone on earth agrees with me. I feel like I'm so ugly that I don't deserve to live. I don't want to live out my life as a freak... I'm a ten minute walk from a subway station and I'm thinking I wanna go there and jump in front of a train. I'm so depressed, so sick of being me, so sick of this world.. and sick of being here.